its been awhile since i felt the need to squint and wish for the noise to go away.
its a silly thought, but sometimes i’d imagine how great it would be if i could squint really hard, open my eyes and everything is okay again. thats what i hoped for before i left, and here we are, 3 years later, making the same silly wish.
everytime i feel more lost than the last.
i ask myself what i can do to fix things. from what angle should i use to approach the situation.
how can i make it better?
because that is the true purpose for my return is it not?
how can i play my part… before it suffocates me?
life happens. 